I love this blog.
Even though I barely post it has been there for me, through a lot of hard times.....
And today is one of those days
I logged onto Facebook to see that Robin Williams has died, a suicide, he was an amazing actor and he will be deeply missed
I didn't cry though, why would I, it's a tragedy, every death is and if I cried over everyone....
A couple of hours later I got a call saying my aunt died, and now I can't stop.
She was diagnosed with cancer about two years ago,
when I first saw her after she finished chemo I barely recognized her.
Then she started to get better, her hair grew out and she started to look like herself again.
About a month ago she took a turn for the worse, the cancer had spread...
They put her back on chemo but it was too late
The worse part of death is the idea that you'll never see that person again,
hear them talk,
see them smile,
hear their laugh.
It's all gone
This has been the second person I have lost to cancer this year and it sucks.... It fucken sucks
The worse part is I haven't talked to anybody about it, I keep everything inside and hide it with a smile, I guess thats why when I break I break hard
(Had to take an hour crying break...)
I'm going to miss my aunt with my whole heart, but the pain I'm feeling is nothing compared to some others.
She leaves behind a loving husband, 3 amazing kids, 9 siblings, and a large amount of family and friends.
Good Bye Zia Elena, I love you
